I Won't Back Down

I love me some Tom Petty right now. "I Won't Back Down" has made its way to top my of "recently played" playlist on my ipod. What a great song. It's so solid. Good rhythm, simple lyrics, solid beat. Its just a really great song. Petty wrote the song in 1988 [though not released till '89]. I like to think that ol' Tom could feel something crazy about to be birthed into this world, so he wrote this song as an intro for my life.

In all seriousness, I love this song. How can you listen to:

Well I know whats right, I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin' me around
But Ill stand my ground and I wont back down

and not get just a little pumped up. Cause isn't that what we all want? Something to fight for. Something that we can be passionate about. Whether or not we want to admit it...no matter how laid back and mellow we want everyone to think we are...

We're all looking for that variable in life that we could stand up at gates of hell for and we wouldn't back down.

Something that so captivates us that we can't contemplate taking that easy way out.

We want something to fight for. We desire passion. I've been finding out recently that I desire to be so passionate about something that it totally and completely absorbs every part of me. I want a passion that makes me fearless.

[A lot of times we mistake the concern for the way our passions are carried out for fear.There's a difference between concern and fear...but that's a different blog for a different day]

Back For Another Round.

Wow. It has been too long since my last real blog. I realize now how much I miss it. Blogging is therapeutic in a way for me. I guess I feel like I'm getting out everything that I've been needing to say. And I can write for as long as I want...cause it's my blog...and I can do what I want to with it. If you think my blog is too long...or too boring...or to menial...then you can go away...no feelings hurt. The search bar is up at the top just waiting to help redirect you to another location...

Life has been a little crazy the past few weeks or so. Between school, work, church, picking up my brother and dealing with other people problem... I've been going nonstop. I've made myself sick from lack of sleep and pretty much run my entire body down.

But I wish I could say that I hadn't done it to myself.

I've been keeping myself busy. I've been lost and scared and confused. The worst part is that I've been taking the easy way out. I hate that. I hate that in my moment of fear I let myself do the cowardly thing of keeping myself so busy that I haven't had time to deal with my own emotions. I never thought I'd let myself be that person.

Wow...this is a really horrible blog to come back on, huh? Man..you really should have redirected when you had a chance.

I'm focusing on Marketing, Economics and Finance for the next 48 hours. After that I'm starting to deal with this stuff.