Home By Saturday

Been a good weekend. Done with Accounting forever and I couldn't be happier. BISM class is over. It was my easy class of the semester. Signed up to take the same professor for BISM 3100 next semester. Atleast I'll have 1 easy class next semester.

Been hanging out with some really good friends this weekend. I helped put up the Christmas tree. Mom's probably not happy that it wasn't the one in her living room, but at least I helped someone though, right? Overall its been a really good weekend.

I've got a feeling everything gunna be alright

Eric said that it was okay for it to be about me right now. So I'm going to try.

I hurt.

That's all I've got. I'm not good at this yet.

I Wanna Talk About Me

I always wanna talk about me.

What's going on in my life. What I wanna do. Who I wanna be. The pain that I'm in. The decisions that I'm making. How great my day has been.

Today I'm trying to take the focus off of me and just be thankful for life.

There's so many people around the world who can't just live life.
Can't do what they want to do.
Be who they want to be.
Can't escape the pain they're in.
Have their decisions made for them
and are happy to just have lived through their day.

I have the freedom to do what I want to do and be who I want to be. So I have alot to be thankful for.

1, 2, 3, 4.

Today I'm letting go of everything thing I've been holding onto.
(holding me back)

I am excited to see where God takes me
unsure of where to start
confident that He will get me there
and more than anything

scared out of my mind

scared to fail at being
good enough
strong enough
smart enough
graceful
faithful
adequate
and/or
effective

Ineffective...ew. The thought makes me sick at my stomach. sick at my heart.
The idea of just being another number.
1, 2, 3...there goes Stephanie...5, 6, 7..blah.


I want to be the one who's motivated by what scares me.
that my fear of complacency drives me.
to be stronger.
To be everything that I need to be
To be who people need me to be
who He made me to be